Well well well. I don’t know what to say. I have been trying to manage putting a going away get together together with my family for Sunday the 27th of December, 2 days before we leave for Florida and now it is turning into a fiasco.
Instead of saying this person said this or that person meant this or we should do this or that, I am putting my hands up and deciding on my own that I am not going to any get together. Plans changed not because of me and so instead of keep changing our plans and driving myself crazy I will just say nope. I am not going anywhere. I am going to stay home and just pack. I don’t need this extra added aggravation. It is not good for my health and mental state. So instead of fighting with everyone, I will just let them know that I don’t want to get together with anyone and that I’m not going to keep changing my plans for anyone else.
I am the one leaving here. We are going away. No one is accommodating us or taking into consideration our feelings, so I am going to just either write to everyone and say that I would rather just pack and not get together because it’s not turning out the way that I had hoped it would be. That’s fair and easy to do. I cannot keep getting myself in the middle of other people not getting along with anyone. It’s not good for me and the drama I need to stay away from. I don’t always see it but my fiancé notices it for me and reminds me to avoid the drama.
So as much as it hurts to have to do this. I am going to just say, I am not doing anything with anyone. I am just going to stay low, keep to myself and if people want to call or write and say their “goodbye’s” that is fine. I don’t hate anyone. I just cannot handle this stress – it is uncalled for. No one has the decency to call and let me know that the plans I made with everyone was changing because of this or that reason. I am not a mind reader, and no one again is taking what struggle I am going through just to have to move and all.
No one is putting their personal differences aside and so I will have to be the brother that puts his foot down and say, I don’t want to get together. What is done is done. If anyone wants to call me I will be here until the 29th. If anyone wants to visit, I will just have to decline for reasons I don’t and shouldn’t have to get into. My health means a lot and it is not going to get pushed around on the inside when I didn’t cause any disagreements within this family.
1 comments:
I agree completely Forrest. Self preservation is the way to be. I hear you completely! And, I can't wait to see you in a few months at your new home!!!! YEAH! Love you. Only you can take care of you and Penny is beautiful for helping you to see. I'm happy to hear you are doing what is best for you. I had a similar experience with stress with my going away party and its so not worth it.
For me, I may still be open to having people over if they want to see me, but also to allow them to help me pack too. Hell, its a huge deal what you and Penny are going through and with the bipolar ontop of that.
I love you! Glad you are loving yourself and keeping the stress levels to a minimum. It's so important. xoxox
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