Last get together with my side of the family

Well well well.  I don’t know what to say.  I have been trying to manage putting a going away get together together with my family for Sunday the 27th of December, 2 days before we leave for Florida and now it is turning into a fiasco. 

Instead of saying this person said this or that person meant this or we should do this or that, I am putting my hands up and deciding on my own that I am not going to any get together.  Plans changed not because of me and so instead of keep changing our plans and driving myself crazy I will just say nope.  I am not going anywhere.  I am going to stay home and just pack.  I don’t need this extra added aggravation.  It is not good for my health and mental state.  So instead of fighting with everyone, I will just let them know that I don’t want to get together with anyone and that I’m not going to keep changing my plans for anyone else.

I am the one leaving here.  We are going away.  No one is accommodating us or taking into consideration our feelings, so I am going to just either write to everyone and say that I would rather just pack and not get together because it’s not turning out the way that I had hoped it would be.  That’s fair and easy to do.  I cannot keep getting myself in the middle of other people not getting along with anyone.  It’s not good for me and the drama I need to stay away from.  I don’t always see it but my fiancé notices it for me and reminds me to avoid the drama.

So as much as it hurts to have to do this.  I am going to just say, I am not doing anything with anyone.  I am just going to stay low, keep to myself and if people want to call or write and say their “goodbye’s” that is  fine.  I don’t hate anyone.  I just cannot handle this stress – it is uncalled for.  No one has the decency to call and let me know that the plans I made with everyone was changing because of this or that reason.  I am not a mind reader, and no one again is taking what struggle I am going through just to have to move and all.

No one is putting their personal differences aside and so I will have to be the brother that puts his foot down and say, I don’t want to get together.  What is done is done.  If anyone wants to call me I will be here until the 29th.   If anyone wants to visit, I will just have to decline for reasons I don’t and shouldn’t have to get into.  My health means a lot and it is not going to get pushed around on the inside when I didn’t cause any disagreements within this family.