I won't miss this cold weather

To think that I will be in Florida in 20 days is incredible. I never thought I would be moving to a warm state. It will be very different from this damn cold weather I have endured for so long. I hope that the conditions under which I will live down there will be much better for me than up here.

Although I am scared to move, because so many thoughts are racing through my head - from the cost of the move to how this will affect my entire life going forward. I know it is not necessarily a definite thing, but I want it to be. First I will be closer to my parents. Is this a good or bad thing? I think good right now. I hope it will stay that way. Will my girlfriend adapt to the weather and the holiday seasons down there? I know that we will be coming up north for Christmas each year, so for me that is good and bad. I don't like crowds of people and what if the weather is bad, all the cancellations and long hours waiting for a next flight will be hectic. I guess we can leave around the 22nd come back on the 26th. That way we have a good 5 days and the only lines we might face are on our way back home.

I really don't know what to expect in Florida. I really never imagined my life down there and because of my illness it makes sense to be in the warmer more consistent climate full of sunshine and light. I am hoping that it will help to stabilize my condition and make it more manageable. I still experience ups and downs and lately I have been more depressed than ever. I think the fact that I am bored, no where to go and not seeing anyone is making me crazy. I just am a home body now and I don't feel like going anywhere or seeing anyone.

Anyway, I still look forward to the fact that I will be in Florida, but not looking forward to relying on a moving company to move us. I feel scared and helpless. What if something is missing or better yet, what if the truck rolls over in the snow? I cannot help but think of all the negative things that may occur. I just hope that the price of almost $6000 is worth the trip and will make my life a much more enjoyable one.