Missing my Jack Russell Terrier Orion

The night I left my baby at the local Barking Dog kennel I was so alone. I realized that without my dog being around me at home, I would be totally by myself, when my girlfriend was at work during the evening. I particularly didn't like it. I feel like this dog of mine is my baby and without watching him and going through the normal routines of taking him out for a walk, well, actually out to the yard to go to the bathroom, feeding him and just being home with him right at my side, I felt so alone.

How could having a dog do this to someone? Besides being one of my best friends, he is my favorite pet. I have several cats and a bird, but nevertheless, Orion is my special companion. Sometimes I get sick of my dog, but that is normal....I just want him to be good, stop humping the cats, and never to pee on the carpet.

By watching over this child of mine, it does set aside my emotional emptiness that I feel sometimes because of my illness. He has such a great personality. If I lie down in bed to rest, he will surely follow. He climbs up the little steps and jumps onto the bed and rests besides me, usually licking his paws before he settles down.

Orion is something special all right. He is right beside me as I type this blog. He is very attentive, stubborn and because he has taken a bath at the kennel, smells beautiful. Now I must adhere to a regiment of bathing him, evey month or so....It is quite remarkable how, smelling a dog's coat can be refreshing if it is so clean. He is a short haired pup, but he still sheds fur everywhere. My girlfriend doesn't like hair and when he shakes his little body it goes everywhere - like on our way home from the kennel, the other day. She hated it, cuz some fur flew into her space. I don't get that. If you love dogs, then fur comes with them. Right?

Anyway, I don't know what I would do without my Orion. He is old now, about 14 years and he is still so energetic. I don't want to get another dog after he passes because I want to enjoy the peace and quiet, and less responsibilities of having an animal such as a dog for a pet. They are a handleful sometimes. But will I be able to stand not having such a companion by my side? I will have certainly cling to my girlfriend and my cats for support when he has gone to heaven. I just will be devastated when he goes, of course, it probably won't hit me right away, or maybe it will and I will surprise myself. I still haven't decided if I want to bury him or cremate him. I thought I would prefer to bury him, but I am having second thoughts. I may want to scatter him ashes to various places I might attend.

Jack Russell's are really fun dogs, especially Orion. Named after the hunter constellation, he is my baby. He is my love, and he loves me. I wish he would be here forever. Let's just hope and pray that I've given him a full life and that he truly enjoys being with me. I would hate to think that I could have done more with him, since I am home most of the day, or basically all of the time. Very rarely do I go out anymore. I am antisocial and just feel like a homebody as of late.

Orion - I want you to know that despite all my weird and quirky ways. All the terrible feelings of abandonment you went through because I was selfish and hypersexual, being out all the time, and leaving you home alone, that I am sorry and I hope you forgive me. I love you forever. I will always think about you, and when I look into the night sky and see the stars, I will always point out to friends and family, where you have gone in the heavens. Always looking down upon me, and watching me from afar. Thank you for being my friend for such a long time. I love you.